Shedfromthebody

PATHEA

 

the mothers were crying alone with silver spoons 
pulled out their hair 
and the fathers were dirt and the children were dying out 
and nothing was heard in spite of them crying out 

and the rivers were burning as waters came flooding in 
drowning the frail 
and a heat that no one had known dried up our mouths 
we begged, we fought, but the war had starved us out

 

Hum

 

i hope you don't resent 
i hope you will not mind 
that i'm leaving tomorrow 
oh, i trust you not to tell 

my heart is a river 
a dead and aimless hum 
it calls me to follow 
oh, it wants to take me home 

when i go 
there will be nothing left of me 
i will leave nothing behind 

when i go 
someone else can take my seat 
i want no one to cry 

as if i was never even there 
as if i was never in your heart 
lay my memory down 
i promise 
i promise it will be okay.

 

SOL

 

i'll help you bear this child 
a floodling, a fucker 
become the worthless one 
fragile and naked 

sol, i exist in your love 
sol, i exist in your love 

in this death 
i see you 
in my blood 
i see you 
in others 
i see you 
earth mother 
i feel you 

(she'll devour us all) 

i push through your veil of fire 
rest in your flesh 
eclipse my heart's desire 
destroy the radiance

 

HYALINE

 

hang your head low, my darling 
hang your head low, my darling 
hang your head low, my darling 
or it takes you 

your time is coming, my darling 
the blade is falling, my darling 
you'd better start burying yourself alive 

and they kneel 
one after the other 
silent as they fall 

hyaline 
we were never meant to last 

in the silent night 
heaven comes down to me

 

CURL

 

this earth is stark 
crooked and toothed 
i'm filled with bile 
see it swelling over 

i hate that i adore 
the way you curl in me 
i want to burn your house down 

five fingers fold 
reach around your vein 
you won't want to know 
but i'll stay till morning 

see my shadow 
in the mire 
losing faces and traces of meaning 
deep in the waste of the earth 
we come undone

 

CHERUBIAN HAND

 

cherubian hand 
lay down in the center of me 
unveil my love 
fill me up with stones 

i'm carving a bridge to the real world 
carving a bridge to the real world 
from my flesh, over the water 
from my flesh, over and over 

cherubian hand 
swallow down the longing 
your shape haunts my bed 
comes in dreamless nights 

cherubian hand 
wasted affection 
let my arms enshroud you 
faceless and fair 

i'm carving a bridge to the real world 
carving a bridge to the real world 
from my flesh, over the water 
from my flesh, over and over

 

AXHIDE

 

i've got you under my fingernails 
and stains on my arms 
i've got a thousand heads 
and the taste of blood on my tongue 

i am a flightless child 
and a fucker with no name 
i am a bastard born of a wolf 
misshapen by pray 

we're moving 
but i don't know where we're going 
but i don't know where we're going 
we're losing ourselves 

i've bled on the dullest edge of your dream 
fallen off the earth 
i've sat here and waited for life to begin 
eroding my worth 

we're moving 
but i don't know where we're going 
but i don't know where we're going 
we're losing ourselves

 

PASO FINO

 

shiver 
hollow 
breathe another time 
the white horse rides again 

ender 
giver 
regurgitate destruction 

deathless other 
i want to know 
deathless saint 
i want to be endless 

there is no house that can save you from this death 

step 
gentle gait 
she births the winter 
she makes the fire 

deathless other 
i want to know 
deathless saint 
i want to be endless

 

VEINS

 

veins become roads 
stretching wide below 
never grow old 
we stay deadlocked 

take my hand 
true red bone 
take my hand 
'til we forget where we've been 

grayest wastelands 
endless roads 

time won't take us home 
away from these dying halls 

take my hand 
true red bone 
take my hand 
'til we forget where we've been 

and in the end 
there is only you and me

 

A BETTER PLACE

 

i have seen a better place 
it came with its hands open 
eyes wide in desire 
reaching out to me with phantom limbs 
pale like gossamer 
saying 
hold me now like you never could 
step into my arms 
hold me now like you never could 
forget the pain 
forget the pain

 

A DISINTEGRATION

sit down 
turn to dust 
sit down.

 

THE HOLLOWING OF GIRLS

hollow daughter
slow dance towards the dark
fingertips in the mud
savage savior
she kisses me with teeth
writes her sins on my lips
opened up
displayed to heaven
heads conjoined, empty things

turn me inside out.